A Tribute to Jane Austen

Friday, February 3, 2012

It's not me

So you say
sorry for leading you on
sorry for giving you hope
sorry for crushing your dreams

but I say
It's okay
I know how to feel that way

So you say
sorry to have ever know me
sorry for being a prick
sorry for the memories

but I say
It's okay
because that is who you are

So you say
I can't forget her still
I can't go on with you
I don't know what to do

but I say
all this time I said okay
but in my heart I was torn
all this time I said I was okay
but in truth I was crying away..

I can't change your mind
I believe you'll do what you think is right
It is your choice to choose
past or future
I'll be here waiting
but if you choose the past...
then I'll be force to walk away..

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

My Obsession With Adele's Songs

I Love her voice not to mention her lyrics that seriously took me by surprise because it shows my feelings towards this 1 guy that I don't have the guts to face coz I'm freaking out everytime I see him n ended up running away... this is the lyric that I wish I could say to him.

Found myself today singing out loud your name,
you said I'm crazy,
if I am I'm crazy for you.

Sometimes sitting in the dark, wishing you were here
turns me crazy,
but it's you who makes me lose my head.

And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible
you drift into my head
and turn me into a crumbling fool.

Tell me to run and I'll race,
if you want me to stop I'll freeze,
and if you want me gone i'll leave, just hold me closer baby,
and make me crazy for you.
Crazy for you.

Lately with this state I'm in I can't help myself but spin.
I wish you'd come over,
send me spinning closer to you.

My oh my, how my blood boils, it's sweet taste for you,
strips me down bare
and gets me into my favorite mood

I keep on trying, fighting these feelings away,
but the more I do,
the crazier I turn into.

Pacing floors and opening doors,
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hoping you'll walk through

and save me boy,
because I'm too crazy for you.
Crazy for you

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I Love You

hey... so this is a lyric that I wrote myself... depending on my mood that day... and I feel like I'm in love that day.... so this is it...

I Love You

I always left to wonder
Whether I would find love
Alone I think I won’t
It’s an impossible thing
I thought it’s hard for me
To find someone
That love me for me

Isn’t it funny?
To see me like this
All googly eyes on you?
You made me like this!
I hate to say it
I hate to know it
But I think I love you

Going through my life
Hope I could survive
Bored and soulless
That’s all I see, black and white
‘Till you came into my life
I thought finding someone like you
would be hard.

Isn’t it funny?
To see me like this
All googly eyes on you?
You made me like this!
Afraid to say it
Afraid to know it
But I think .. I think I love you

I’m head over heels
Giving you what I feel
Don’t you dare to break it
Cause its valuable for me
And you’re the first to have it

I think this is how I felt that day....

Thursday, November 17, 2011

My feelings 2......

I'm happy and sad at the same time... its almost the end of the year... I might be able to find someone that I gradually like.... OK.. correction... I think I have found the 1 person that I gradually like.... OK..... Another correction!!!! I might have.... sorta.... could be.... ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I can't understand my feelings anymore!! is this how it feels like to fall in love????

My friends told me to accept him... I might... but I don't know.... Maybe I just need time to understand my feelings better... I just don't know why ... why I couldn't bring myself to like him... I mean I like him.... but I'm not confident with my feelings... I don't know If I'm making the right choice.... I seriously hate my condition now.... I just don't understand it.... Stupid me huh???

But I couldn't deny the fact that I'm happy to have a first reciprocate love.... I'm afraid to open the door of new things ahead of me... I have a lot of vision... happy vision... but I'm still not presented with the bad things... I'm afraid of surprises that I might regret later... I ask Lord , God... what should I do... I ask for forgiveness if I did something wrong.... I ask to be rid of this feeling, if he is not mine to keep.... I ask to be clear of my feelings...

But every time I ask for these... I keep on getting confuse....

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Boy meets Girl

Thinking ‘bout the story that both of us had share
Funny how I seems to know that you’ll always be here
How you used to be
Always watching me
Don’t you think that I know that
you silly boy
To think that all this time
You were by my side
Taking care of me like you should
to come on out when I need you  most
listening to my every word
I know boy coz you’re my hero

But I guess that’s how our love goes
It always was unpredictable
This was the case of boy meets girl.                                                                 
He never know what he did
To make her fall

You keep on telling me
How sweet and warm I am
Never knew you know more than me
About me myself and I
I keep telling you
To stop being a fool
This dreams you keep on having, boy
It not for me

But that’s how our love goes
It always was unpredictable
This was the case of boy meets girl.
He never know what he did
To make her fall

Set everything aside
What matter the most
You’re here by my side
And I will never let you go

just me

Thanks...a lot
for making me realize that I have feelings
that later you made me confuse
of this alien feelings..

Thanks....a lot
for making me realize that I have a fragile heart
that you strengthen by coming
coming to my side

Thanks....a lot
for making me realize how much I worth in your eyes
that you tell me from your looks
that engraved itself in my heart

Thanks....a lot 
for giving me new memories
that I know I will not forget
until the day I die

Thanks....a lot
for making me feels like a princess
that I'd grown out from it
and left it


Thanks....a lot 

for giving me a chance to fail
for giving me the chance to be hurt
for giving me the pain in my heart
for giving me a chance to face reality
for making me human

Just some poem...

Laughing, smiling. All around me.
I wish I could be the same
I wonder what could be
That can help me to be happy

All along I know I am strong
Standing alone is not wrong
I am smiling showing I'm not weak
But inside you can't see its hidden

I can't say that you're wrong
I can't say that you're right
I can't think of anything that can set my heart straight
I can't feel anything that can help to put me head right

Although I know you'll not read this
Although I know you don't know its existences
Although you might be somewhere else
Although you might just be in my mind
But I still want to say that thank you
and know that 'll never forget you.